Yesterday at 5:30pm Meeka my Guinea pig died. I was really devastated since I really loved her and never expected she would die. Also by the fact that none of the animals I took care of lived long... Is it just pure bad luck or something else? It's like death is always on my hands...

Whats more devastating is that I could do nothing for her. I saw she was in pain and yet I could do nothing. I watched her slowly die. I wouldn't believe it... I talked to her for a few minutes but no response then I noticed that the life was gone from her eyes. There was nothing... just a black void of nothingness...

Then I began thinking why is it that all those I take care of are taken away from me.

I've been asking the same question the whole day yesterday....

Why?

Reported at 11:20 AM
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*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~* Alright! Last Friday was the day where a friend of my brotherhad her thesis defense and to it was a very interesting day...

Anyway that friend of my brother's gave us a pair of cute little guinea pigs which by the way has yet to be named XD. Today one of the guinea pigs had a corn stuck to his/her teeth that caused me to panic... I didn't know what to do thinking that pulling it myself out might break his/her teeth ( I don't know which one's the female or the male... :p ) so I panicked and waited for several minutes until he/she was able to take it out by her/himself.... It was a big relief.... It really scared me..... XD I love my guinea pigs and I don't want anything serious happen to then.... (daisuki!!! n_n)

Reported at 4:49 PM
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*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~* Hello again! it's been a while since I last updated my blog.... hee hee

Well anyway, I'll start with the things that happend after my last post.

I didn' t get to travel abroad after all... Why? To put it bluntly I failed one subject at school so now I have to take summer classes so naturally the trip was cancelled. I was devastated at first crying and feeling sorry for myself the whole day. Then when I calmed down a little I still felt sorry for myself. Who woudn't especially when your feeling that you've totally let your parents down and that your cousin abroad was excitedly waiting for the day that you would arrive then learning that you wouldn't? I sort of felt that I let everyone down...

Then enrollment came... I thought maybe it wouldn't be too bad after all... it's better than doing nothing in summer right? So I started my summer classes soon afterward and luckily my new professor was better than the one I had last semester. Strict but great nonetheless. Too bad he wouldn't be teaching us next school year since he told us that he rarely teach IT and CS students.

Through all this time my grandparents from Cebu was living with us here in Quezon City since my grandmother wanted to see a doctor here in Manila. After a month my grandparents left for Cebu again though I didn't think it was a good idea since they're very old and wouldn't have anyone in Cebu to take care of them if something happens.

I planned to join a Cosplay competition this summer with my brother and my mom planned to go to Cebu for my grandmother's birthday and asked me if I wan't to go too. Thinking that this could be my last trip to Cebu since I knew that my grandparents are planning on selling their house there, I told my mom yes and scrapped my plan in joining this summers Cosplay Competition. Cosplay Competitions are held every year so it wouldn't be a big loss now wouldn't it?

But then just this week my grandmother fell ill and caught pneumonia and was hospitalized so my mom had to go to Cebu ASAP. So my mom asked me if I could go to Cebu on my own. I was afraid at first since I haven't travelled alone but I knew I had to go there since I'll be missing it for the rest of my life so I said yes.

Then it dawned on me. There is this saying that goes "Everything happens for a reason." Now I truly believed in it. I realized that if I passed that subject then I would be able to travel abroad with my father and brother and not get the chance to go to Cebu one last time. So I guess I failed that subject so I could travel to Cebu and enjoy my time there even for a short while.

Now I'm really excited since I'll be able travel to Cebu and even get the chance to travel alone and get lost in the airport!! :p This would be an adventure! :p

Reported at 1:36 PM
Amber

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*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~* Oh my.... this will be our last week of school and then summer break starts! yay! but, Finals has to come first heheheh a week of late night studying once again! oh well...

Still I'm excited this coming summer since this will be my first time travelling abroad! yippeee!!

We'll be visiting my grandmother, aunt, and cousins at Los Angeles for 2 weeks then another 2 weeks with my sister at New York. A total of one month! hmmm..... I'm alreadt thinking of what to wear and what to bring hee hee

I'm so excited!!!


P.S. actually I've been exposed recently to one of my classmates who has chicken pox, and ever since I keep on praying that I wouldn't get 'cause I really want to travel abroad with my family

XD

Reported at 11:07 AM
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*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~* this is what I always keep telling myself...

in all this time that I have been troubled and stressed out all the times that everything went bad... I always said to myself that God never wanted us to suffer... that he has bigger plans for us and all the bad things that are happening to me are just part of the process of completing that big plan....

and somehow... it came as a comfort to me...

and made me realize that being depressed all the time never helped at all...

move on...

... and try to see things differently ....

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Amber

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